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Sunday, April 16, 2006

'Kingdom of Loathing'

Kevin Ray Underwood slipped through the cracks. He is an example of what "the world" of today will do to a person who is left alone to deal with it. I suspect somewhere, somehow the Gospel was offered to him and for whatever reasons - he rejected it. Or, maybe no one bothered with him...he was probably "wierd" and he probably wouldn't "fit in" with most of the "church people"....

On his blog, an online diary that he had kept since September 2002, Underwood described himself as "single, bored, and lonely, but other than that, pretty happy."

He mentions cannibalism, asking "If you were a cannibal, what would you wear to dinner?" and responding: "The skin of last night's main course."

In an entry dated February 4, 2006, Underwood wrote that he struggled with depression and social interaction.

"Pretty much the only time I believe in God is when I blame him for something," he said. "Or, when I'm really depressed, to cry and beg him to make me better, to make whatever is wrong in my brain go away, so that I can live like a normal person.

"That's all I want in life, is to be able to live like a normal person."

He wrote that he rarely left his apartment for long stretches, except to go to work and to buy food. "I just sit here at the computer every minute of the day, when I'm not at work. A week or so ago, I spent my day off sitting here at the computer, barely moving from the chair, for 14 hours."

He said one of his main interests was the online role-playing game "Kingdom of Loathing," in which stick figures battle one another.

In September 2004, he wrote that his depression deepened after several months without taking the medication Lexapro, an antidepressant also used in the treatment of anxiety disorders.

"For example, my fantasies are just getting weirder and weirder. Dangerously weird," he wrote. "If people knew the kinds of things I think about anymore, I'd probably be locked away. No probably about it, I know I would be."

Mother: 'He was always a wonderful boy'

"Regarding a potential motive," Purcell Police Chief David Tompkins said Saturday, "this appears to have been part of a plan to kidnap a person, rape them, torture them, kill them, cut off their head, drain the body of blood, rape the corpse, eat the corpse then dispose of the organs and bones."


Blogger The Spaniard said... comments ????????

4:41 PM  
Blogger TheRev said...

Evil of this type is a mystery.

Though his crimes are utterly horrific, and he must be punished in some way that keeps society safe from him, I can't help but pity such a lost and demented soul.

He now seems to realize the monstrous nature of his crime, but he lacked the strength to contain or rid himself of that monster, before it consumed him.

It is a terrible tragedy that he could not, or would not, get the help he needed. It is also awful that no one seems to have been paying enough attention to see what he was turning into.

Now, an innocent child has been hideously murdered and her killer lives with shame and guilt that he cannot escape.

No one wins. It is unspeakably sad and awful.

I think of the warning God gave Cain as he contemplated murdering Abel: "If you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."

The trouble is that it is so often so much stronger than we. Our only hope then, if a grace greater than ourt sin. But we must open ourselves to the One who is greater than we, and we are often too afraid to admit what is within us, to look to the One above us.

11:08 PM  
Blogger Behr Whitewash said...

I started to comment twice, but was too bothered by the entire incident.

5:42 AM  

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